Where are you now


ff_cecil061Where are you now ?

In the whispers of the night

As I glance the sky

I feel you guiding me to the Orion and to the clusters above

They hold a whole new world within , you would say..

You changed lanes and disappeared

Leaving a void never be filled

Faded into an unknown space

You left leaving your fragrance felt

But Where are you now ?

You were rare and unique

Not understood by many

Unwavering and resolute

Dewy eyed and loving

Leaving behind your wisdom your light

I pledge to let it shine and spread to many

Wish I had more time to make memories with you

More tales to tell my little ones

More laughter and hugs with you

More sharing of jokes and loves for songs

Wish I could learn some more from you

Or just sit and listen to you

I wish we had more time

But where are you now ?

Some say it’s destined

That you had to go

But I say that you had decided to go

You heard your calling and wanted to go back home

Eschewing every bond

You shared your future

And wished for another life and another place

Reminding me that the soul never dies

You were ready to decamp

But where are you now ?

I promise and pray that we will meet again soon

Somewhere in this lifetime

I shall touch your hand

And somewhere I shall see you smile

As you spread your radiant light

You will live in me forever Pa

I am sending you a copy of this

Do read and tell me if I wrote alright

I promise to be a learner always

Humble and loving to the core

And to walk as you taught

Wish to walk with you again

But where are you now…..

– Preeti Manaktala.

An Ode To My Father




Some dreams are vivid, takes me somewhere I don’t know. But, I know this place. Have I seen it before? Some faces some places look familiar to me..some dreams bring back a memory and some go poof ..never to be seen. Some dreams are like fireflies they look alluring for sometime and disappear into vastness. Sometimes you want them to reoccur so you good fix the broken puzzles and draw some meaning out of them.

I have vivid memories of my childhood and school. Some are close to my heart and some still aches my soul. Sometimes the breeze brings with it a vivid fragrance that I know. I seem to be pulled towards it and it brings with it memories of a person I had known.

“A strong emotion, especially if experienced for the first time, leaves a vivid memory of the scene where it occurred”  Algernon Blackwood

I tasted some garden cress seeds a couple of years back and when I chewed on it , I experienced the flavour of something that I had tasted a long long time back. Was it the flavour of a leave that I chewed on as I played Kho Kho with my friends, or was it the taste of a blade of grass that I chewed on as I lay down in the park with my friends.. I haven’t been able to trace the taste of this seed or found the memory that still holds in me. The taste is vivid and it transports me to another place in time .. and so I often like to visit this taste at times…

“Live in moments that consume your heart and mind, but be distracted by the music from the leaves, birds, wind, rain, sun and people”
― Val Uchendu

“The days of the monsoon and the dark clouded sky, brings back vivid memories of my school days I wish I could buy.”

One rainy morning it got dark due to the overcast sky . We were in our classes and it was getting pitch dark. The teacher switched on the lights in the class and I saw the classroom in a new light today. The whole class looked so wonderful and different that day. But I could never focus on studying that day. What took my attention was the cool breeze and smell of the earth. The dewy petrichor pulled me and all I wanted to do was to look at the swaying Eucalyptus trees outside my class window, the wet road the grey skies and the thunder. And on a rainy day like this when my kids are off to school and I sip my cup of tea looking out to the grey pouring sky, I wonder if they feel the day as I did .. Oh ! such vivid memories …they always fills me up with cheer ..I hope my children also make some vivid memories as they grow..